A Momentary Lapse of Reason

For the longest time I havent been able to get the blog in the myspace to function properly but now its fixed and I might continue the rest of this dribble over yonder.

peace.

The cookie was right.
The Party was a hit
...and to top it off...
found an entire case of unopened, untouched 30 pack of Beer.

I volunteered myself as photographer for the night, enjoy!

The 3rd annual Brandon Bash



The 5 Kings who started it all



Thanks to Nygel for letting us use the house



Wolfie is down for anything.



Keg Stands



More Keg Stands



Many came...



..few conquered..



SEW-GAY!!!!



Cheers to being homos!


Hello, I'm Drunk!



DJ Miguel



...before...



..after..
sour patch kids



THE END!!!

Instead of writing about how this night atomically sucked I would have been delighted to tell you about my amazing night at the Stellastarr show but unfortunately that did not happen.

After an hour of being stuck in traffic and finally giving in to pay the 10 dollars for parking My husband and I get inside the Troubador. After getting into the club I debated on whether or not I should go back and show them my "Marina" ID since the husband was being such a stick in the mud about buying me alcohol since I was a minor and when previously that night he did not want to bring the 6 pack I had in the fridge because he did not want to risk getting in trouble...but NO! go give them your ID he says.....so I go back and make the worse decision ever! needless to say they immediately caught on to the ID that was not me and threw me out of the club.

I even tried to go back later that night using my husbands wrist band because they had this stupid rule about not letting minors in and out of the club but people over the age of 21 can. I was immediately rejected a second time that night.

On the ride home I made myself so upset that I got car sick (and I hadn't been car sick in a long time) so instead of feeling bad about not going to the show not only do I feel bad about not going to the show but I feel nauseous and wanting to puke.


so now I am

-$61 (including the $10 parking fee)
-an ID letting me buy boose
-Stellastarr*


And just when I thought I could take my mind off of this sucky situation by falling asleep I wake up at 3:00am feeling like crap and now I cant get back to sleep.


kill me now.

I know I should be saving my money but come on! I've been waiting for these bands to play already.



Tokyo Police Club!



And.....


Stellastarr*

I have a secret crush on Conor Oberst from Bright Eyes
Shhh...Dont tell my husband!

You're taking way too much time out of my life!!!!
but seriously though I can stop any time I want...
I just dont want to right now O_O
I'm seriously determined to get at least a 90% on "Through the Fire and Flames" on Medium.
and then I'll leave it alone.
Just like when I was determined to get to 150 lines on Tetris and as soon as I did I never really had any desire to pick it up again.




^ Thats the Character I usually use on the left but I customized her to look different and more kick ass and not so much like Rachel....haha..

And now off to Disneyland.

I just looked online and single day passes to coachella are sold out.
so that means
IF 3 DAY PASSES TO COACHELLA ARE SOLD OUT BY FRIDAY I AM GOING TO KILL SOMEONE!!!!!!!!

on a completely opposite note.

I seriously find the most random pictures while browsing the internet. You'd be surprised what you'd find.

After much anticipation they finally released the line-ups for Coachella 2008 yesterday. Lets just say that this year is not quite their finest year. Yeah, I'll be honest I was hoping for something better, but how do you top years prior when they've already had great bands like Rage, Radiohead, Pixies, Yeah yeah yeahs, Daft punk, Tool, Coldplay, The Cure, Morrissey, Siouxsie and the Banshees so unless they were going to re-unite The Smiths or Led Zeppelin, this year is nothing to write home about. I wanted to go all three days, but now I'm thinking the first night can kick rocks. Sorry Jack Johnson youre good, but not worth 85 dollars just to see you. However, I am excited to see Portishead and Roger waters (again) I wouldnt mind seeing Roger Waters again because that show is so totally worth it. He will be playing the entire Dark Side of the fucking Moon album!!! which is intense and theres a handful of other bands I'd like to see. I dont think its a total disappointment this year. I couldnt believe the reaction comments I was reading on the Coachella message boards and myspace, people are fucking pissed! They are bitching that this years headlines suck. Well then that just means all the assholes who usually ruin shows for other people can stay home this year and the people that actually appreciate music will have a good time : ) Now lets take a look back to 2006 when Roger Waters played the Dark Side of the Moon album at the Hollywood Bowl.

This video makes me horny.

Its been a while since Ive written anything worth writing about. I remember when I used to write a lot. I was hoping that maybe someone out there in the world that would be my counter-part would be waiting on the other side of this monitor and they would find me so we could smoke cigarettes talk about the best Morrissey lyrics and just rant about how much the world blows. If You're out there it would be nice to let me know now, k? thanks! Life tends to take a little piece out of you each day and before you know it its Tuesday and you wonder where the fuck did the weekend go? I'm about to write the next chapter in my life. Chapter 20 "Back to Bellflower" stay tuned.

Looks like I'll be pulling up some couch tonight. The husband is sick and the room is a sty.



This is whats happening right now.

"So now you send me your hardened 'regards'
When once you'd send me 'Love'
Sincerely I must tell you
Your mild 'best wishes'
They make me suspicious"

Life is Whatever. Still havent found that special someone to hold onto but whatday gonna do? Brenda says not to Rush things, just let whatever happens happen Shes right dammit.
So My friend gave me this awesome idea. He said, when are we gonna make a funny video together? because him and I are both into film and I was looking about getting into that and script writting more. So what we plan to do is make a documentary of the different type of drunks at parties. So next weekend when I go out I am bringing my camera and steal a little footage. So watch out suckas, because I just might video tape you doing something stupid!

Close your eyes and think of someone you physically admire.
::let me kiss you::
But then you open your eyes and you see someone you physically despise

So I got some bad news today. I've been booted out of the play. For those of you who didnt know I was casted in Hamlet, not the biggest of roles. I was excited to at least be casted.Apparently I had to choose between work and being in the play and being in the play isnt gonna pay my bills. I mean seriously, do they really expect me to be there everyday? I didnt even have that big of part. Oh well, in a way its kind of relieving because now I dont have to bum rides and find a way home every night and I can work more hours, earn extra money and this way I have more time to see mah nigga Brenda. I think the only reason why I auditioned was to see if I can actually make it into the show and once I did it wasnt veery fun. I didnt get along with any of the people : / but thats all I have to say for that.
Work is going pleasantly well. I seriously couldnt have asked for a better convenient job thats just right around the corner and to work with the most amazing people. My managers are so kick ass. I came into work 2 hours late from a hang over and my manager, Pat was totally understanding. She was telling me to sit down for a while, eat an orange and some bread until I felt better. Today me and some co-workers were running around the store putting go backs away as fast as we could cuz our manager said she would give us a prize to whoever gets done the fastest. I felt like I was 12 years old running around the store and laughing and throwing more stuff into the other teams basket. Once we were all done it didnt matter who was done the fastest we all got a "prize" anyway.
In a couple weeks I'm gonna go see Chicago [the musical] with Rachel! yeeeyah! woopty woop!

ahh, but I still cant get him off my mind!

Yea so its about 9:00am right now and I havent been up this early in a long time. Just got back from having breakfeast with the pink haired devil aka rachel and two cups of coffee with 10 packets of sugar. We had to send our butter back because it had hair in it TWICE. FYI dont eat at spires Now I know why they got that B on the door. Now I dont know what to do. shall I clean my room? try and go back to sleep? either way you dont give a fuck.
I've been learnign to play that pink floyd song, "Wish you were here" and its fairly easy eccept for the solo part. [That song has a whole new meaning to me for sentimental purposes :) ] My dad can play that whole song and sing it like its nobodys bussiness. sooner or later I will surpass him.
I know, I will go work on that collage I've been meaning to piece together. Later.

so you think you can tell?
heaven from hell
Blue skies from pain
Can you tell a green field
from a cold steel rail
A smile from a veil


I can never get enough of that song even though its played out.

"Love is giving them the power to destroy you, but trusting them not to"

Sometimes I dont know whether or not I actually like someone or if I just have a crush on them. This is so frusterating.

Theres gonna be come trouble
A whole house will need rebuilding
and everyone I love in the house
Will recline
On an analysts couch quite soon

This moment isnt going to matter anymore so why give a fuck. No one will remember where you stand or what you said or what shirt you had on that day. I wish I didnt care. I wouldnt be saying this if I wasnt the one going home alone every night. Dont you remember that feeling? You'd be laying next to him on the bed. I would be behind him with my arms around his waist digging my face into his back, smelling his shirt and how it always smelled so nice. I'd whisper stupid things into his ear. Words were eventually mumbled and eyes were getting heavy until we both fell asleep in each others arms. In the middle of the night I would wake up to kiss him and wrap my arms around him again. I felt so fragile next to him and so protected. Sometimes they can really make you feel beautiful on your worst day. Thats the only thing I really miss about relationships; being able to go home with someoen at the end of the day and not sitting at your computer like a moron. I dont care to have another beau though. Its hard to find a guy to just be serious for a moment and not have him look at you like a stranger the next day. The sweet is not as sweet without the sour I suppose. but fuck! is there not a decent guy left around here??